Memories are wonderful and terrible things. To tame them is to learn from the bad memories and to love, but not become heartbroken, over the good ones.

Today is perhaps the most fitting Anti Fear List Thursday of the year!

• Witnessing humorous interactions between friends
• The way dayquill pills look
• Dreams
• Lucid Dreaming (score!)
• Talking to SwahiliMericans over skype
•  Echo Thrift
• Xylophones 
• Moose Sweaters
• The Farm
• Grandpa
• Grandpa trying to bite the ukulele
• Being warm
• Gourds again
• Children
• When siblings perform an action toward you that seems very much silly because it is out of context because they mistook you for a different sibling
• Embarrassing Felicia in Walmart "THIS IS MY THRONE OF CANDLES AND I SIT ON IT BECAUSE I AM ROYALTY AND THIS IS MY THROOONE!"

Regarding

Some messages from God are better delivered indirectly. I suppose they shouldn't be better because the reason that they seem to be is that coming straight from God we don't always believe them.

I started my day with a most wondrous chat with Claire Peterson thanks to her succeeding in convincing me to stop my silly anti skype due to anxiety of awkward feelings. Though I still remain in a state of I-will-only-use-skype-to-communicate-to-the-Petersons.

Further more I played worship music with Ian today, he learned Come Thou Fount on his violin.

Even further more I went to Echo Thrift for the first time in a long while and it felt like returning to a home. They have a xylophone that I love dearly. It was most superb to reunite with Dan and Leah.

Which reminds me of my visit to the Farm on Sunday. Which also feels like returning home. And I got to visit with my Grandpa which was wondrous and he sang with my siblings and I and he gave a deep belly laugh. The Farm feels like a sort of Narnia. I spent my most recent time in Narnia by taking a nap, attempting to tune my Grandpa's ukulele which seems to just need new strings, and climbing a tree. Time well spent says I.

Motives and God

Today my friend gave me a very good piece of advice, I feel he may have felt awkward or nervous delivering it, but it was quite very muchly good advice. Basically he said that one's motives should be out of love and not fear. It was something I needed to hear.

Another friend told me she felt God telling her I would and do take part in the redemption of many people.

I am blessed to have such faith around me but I need to be talking to God more instead of just being delivered his messages.

In other news today my little brother was talking to his ramen noodles and I succeeded in eating the majority of a banana.

A "controversial" blog post

I debated making this post because I don't wish to drag down any set atmosphere for the blog wars and not every place is the right place to talk about politics. But then I said screw those stupid apprehensions. Stick with me and at the end there shall be turtles.

I believe in gay rights.

Regarding non Christian gays: "What business is it of mine to judge those outside the church? Are you not to judge those inside?" 1 Corinthians 5:12

Don't hold those outside of our religion to the same standards.

Regarding Christian gays: Think to the story of Jesus protecting the adultress. Men asked permission to stone an adultress and what Jesus had to say was this, "If any one of you is without sin, let him be the first to throw a stone at her." John 8:7

Go ahead, punish someone who has sinned, that is, punish them if you yourself are without sin. Tell me about one day in your life when you went entirely without sin not including perhaps a day when the Holy Spirit came upon you or when you were at an age before comprehensive sin. 

Regarding God intending straight marriage: He also intended for us to stay in eden, not wear clothes, and not sin in general. 

Regarding running the country as Christians: One of the original purposes of what is now America was to gain freedom. Are we, as Christians, going to oppress the freedom? The bible tells us to be accepting so we should be accepting our fellow citizens regardless of sexual orientation or religion, do we need to go through something so similar to segregation once more? In the bible when people were troubled by the ways of the government Jesus said, "Then give to Caesar what is Caesar's, and to God what is God's." Luke 20:25 I interpret this as Jesus wishing us to separate our religion from government.  This does not mean forget who you are and what you stand for when you are involved with political matters, but it I believe it means that your government does not need to be run by your religion. It is like the belief in public school versus private Christian schools; the child, or citizen, gets exposed to new people and new ideas and is allowed to be free thinking and as a result gets lost, or grows strong in religion. Humans do not control the path of other humans.

Feel free to give me your input

Regarding turtles. Aquatic turtles go into semi hibernation at the bottom of their pond or other body of water. Terrestrial turtles go find moist grassy hibernation areas. Turtles like hibernating from October to March. 

Anti-fear list Thursday (A thing I shall commence as of now and welcome Josh and our other bloggy buddies to join in)

• Big gongy sounds
• Skies very much freckled with stars
• Sarcasm
• The Prince of Egypt
• Writing
• Gourds
• Smiley face house
• Concert Choir
• Reading children's books in crappy scottish accents

The day I decide to recommence blogging is coincidentally the day that I want to make posts about things.

Today I got inducted to the National Honor Society. The only requirements were to a. be an upper classman and b. have a GPA of 3.5 or higher. Then basically you need to serve at least 20 hours within the school year to maintain your status and get a gold tassel on your graduation cap. It also looks good on applications for things. So basically that is why the majority of people there were there.

I suppose my personal reasons for accepting the invitation to join the NHS was because I volunteer anyway so why not? But maybe I shall also take it as a reminder to make sure I am volunteering. Though with backstage crew I technically already have all my hours filled.

When first at the induction I felt very anxious because I was surrounded with people who make me feel unhappy, insignificant, bleh bleh bleh. But friends showed up and the ceremony was humorously conducted so it was okay.

So far two good things have come of NHS. I mentor a freshman named Haley on Tuesdays during seminar and while she seems quite independent it's nice to meet new people and just be there for someone just in case they need school help or advice. Secondly, at the ceremony I saw my fifth grade teacher for the first time in a long long while! Immediately pleasant fifth grade memories flooded my brain and I recalled them to him and gave him a hug. That was a very good year in the life of Abi.

It has been far too long. So to recommence here is a list of things, off the top of my head that happened since my last post

• I went to the Adirondacks on a mission trip {which probably deserves an entirely separate blog post}
• I got my driver's license
• I commenced my Junior year of high school
• I went sailing on a not very windy day
• I started construction on a lamp drum
• I made stew and crumpets
• Felicia got her license so I went on a journey that involved a pickle and sheep with her
• I danced and drew and sat on top off mt. pigaski (oh what ever it is called) to the music that is the lovely lovely Babel
• I began to attend Lakeshore Vineyard
• I biked a lot a lot a lot
• I became friends with Kelila
• I became the pineapple huntress
• I journeyed to the end of the pier and yelled into the windiness
• I bought a jumpsuit
• I played the ukulele but as of recently not nearly often enough
• I sang as of recently lots and lots
• I rode a horse
• I made a quill
• I climbed a tree
• I backstage CAHREW'd
• I played with Oddie and Hava
• I observed turtles
• I painted and then smashed a guitar
• I read Jane Eyre and the Hobbit
• I made an Abi widda K cereal box
• I gave blood and received and irritated nerve