ANTI FEAR LIST THURSDAY!

• the colors Joshua started incorporating in Anti fear list thursday
• Taking Lizzy and Micah to Chuck E Cheese's 
• Felicia coming to youth group with us
• Giving up on not letting Joshua carry me to the car because of tiredness
• Giggling a lot
• The Petersons!
• The man with the golden retriever during passing time
• When people understand what I mean by the gasoline aftertaste of honey mustard
• Experimental caffeine headache remedy in test tube
• Successfully guessing animal skulls

Anti Fear List Thursday!

• Annie Coughenour 
• Porcupines
• Jam session with Anna and Josh
• When Josh shouts when I fall or jump into snow
• My bamboo stick
• Gathering my favorite childhood books from around the house
• The noise Annie's dog makes when you pet him
• Concert Choir robes
• Singing in foreign languages
• The stubborn curl in Ricky's hair
• The presence of noses and eyelashes 
• At least trying the banana

Euchre

It is dangerous to begin a game of euchre and not finish. It leaves you with an insatiable thirst to play more euchre. Maybe euchre is dangerous as is.

If I could

If I could I would put a protective blanket over my friends. Or maybe just over everyone. No hatefully worded attacks could penetrate the blanket.

But I am not God and not even God puts the protective blanket over us because I suppose that would be taking away our free will.

So that leaves the job of helping each other up to us and the protective blanket is not going to work. So we should  realize that there is meaning behind the common sayings about not insulting or judging people because we don't know what they're going through.

Words can be extremely hurtful. Even in the strongest people harmful words said stay in the brain and eat away and convince the mind that maybe there really is something wrong with us.

But there's not! We're all beautiful! And that is a very hard message to get into the heart of a hurt soul. So stop before the damage is done

Accomplishment

It is good to allow yourself to feel accomplished over semi small things. Don't get on a high horse for successfully putting socks on, that is too extreme.

But maybe it's okay to feel accomplished for successfully watching a scientific video about wolf stomachs without throwing up. Or drinking lots and lots of water so long as you do not make your bladder burst. And maybe you shouldn't find too much accomplishment out of drinking coffee because coffee is not the best thing to drink in extremely large quantities. But it certainly isn't the worst either.

And don't let yourself feel accomplished for spending successful time with friends. I mean in a way you can, but friends are not to be collected and checked off as success points. They are for loving and being loved by.

Sick brain wisdom of the day from yours truly.

late ANTI FEAR LIST because I'M BUSY AND SICK K?

• Elementary-esque duels
• Ticket to ride
• Eggs Benedict?

Wow this is really hard my brain has been fuzzy all week

• Catwalk to battery land
• I LIKE YOUR PANTS
• Sharing books with Joshua
• Felicia trying to make me pass out and or rupture my spleen
• The Lorax
• Toe hole sock fashion trend
• Reading reading reading
• Battongs
• Cool loft room!
• Bonding left side shoulder grasps
• Jubilant sea eyes

conspiracy theories

• my spleen is sensitive
• every time i try to enter the code when trying to comment on other blogs i actually succeed in typing the code but blogspot always always makes me try twice just to tease me

Anti Fear List Thursday!!!!

• Grapple the apple!
• The hello kitty thing Hava gifted to me this morning
• The noble pretend death of Felicia
• Lunch at the Watkin home
• Human checkers
• We are clllluuutching in the pt cruiser we are clutching in the pt cruiiiser
• Wearing sweat pants under skirts
• Spitting coffee and raisins
• Return glasses case adventures
• K?!?!

Presence

It is very good to just be in the presence of friends. And you don't even need to do much when you're with them to be happy. Felicia and I lay around and watch Doctor Who and old cartoons and then I trip over outstretched chair foot rests and that's just cool cool cool "chill" happiness. Go friendship! huzzah huzzah!