ANTI FEAR LIST THURSDAY

• "Oh pudu!"
• "I looked inside of it and it looked inside of me" with adventure on my chin
• Kelila gave me an ocarina!
• Dancing
• Being a youth leader
• Not eating pretzels
• Almost accomplishing the life goal of tackling Austin
• Exotic fruit salad
• Painting wind chimes 
• The Kohls' book shop
• Chaperoones and very long chazuras 
• Reuniting with Kristen and Daniel
• Spalunking 
• Coffee with Bergy
• Lunch with Soph and Felicia and Bergy and Sam and Annie
• "What's the password?" "AND YOU'LL REGRET IT ALL ONE DAY" "Honey we're grading exams."
• Songs about staticy hair
• Dreams about tiny tiny walrus
• Running hand in hand through the snow
• Learning more
• Reuniting with Mal
• Smelling candles 

Stay yonder way from me

Ian and Kaylee have been juggling colds lately and I have been either fortunate enough or victorious enough to not contract their sniffling noses and wretched coughs. Paranoia is creeping over my shoulder that my new goal of keeping up a healthy streak will be vanquished. I'm poking it in the eye with this very large amount of orange juice I am drinking.

I am very cold even though I'm wearing plenty of warm clothing. I have an epidemic. That is an extreme hyperbole. I can never be pleased. When I awoke I was sleepily grouchy for the extreme hotness of my room. Maybe I should go back in there.

While googling this picture I had a sudden fear meerkats were a figment of my imagination

Anti Fear List Thursday!

• Josh is home 
• Leis 
• Plastic cup percussion
• Journeying with Bergy to the land of "I need to microwave something"
• Moonshine and the lion and Puck
• Riding in a Weasely-esque car
• The Harry Potter witch who enjoyed the tickling sensation so much that she let herself be caught and "burned" lots and lots of times
• I'm going to write on the humorous creative freedomy page in the West Ottawan which is kind of full of pressure but still yay
• Til Kingdom Come by Coldplay
• Finding out that Mr. Sampson likes The Lord of the Rings
• Books book books!
• Pocahontas in Swedish 
• I finally finally finally learned from the years and years of my bad cookie making past
• Learning how to pick a ripe melon from the store
• The humorous texts Grace has been sending me as of late
• Playing lots of Mario Cart with Isaac
• Lizzy showing me her circus tricks
• "MO'RDU!"
• Reading books to the kids I babysit in a "spanish accent" and dancing along with innumerable Barbie movies

This list was reasonably long despite having a mental block originally. And I suppose that in its self is anti fear list worthy! booo ya!

How are you

Sometimes people ask you what mood you are in and you go through and internal debate whether to tell the person, perhaps a person who you do not want to lie to, how you feel or retain your negative feelings so they do not bog down the person. It is easier to retain the emotion when you are asked someone who does not really care. I generally try to share my actual mood because people don't ask you your mood unless they care or suck at small talk and if they suck at small talk I can detect that and respond with a generic response. huzzah!

Reunion

I am in a joyous season of reunion!

I reunited with Sophi and Felicia and Boo and Honey and Hava and Oddie and Isaac and Grace and just today Mal and I had the ultimate reunion hug and I reunited with youth group Echo Thrift and I look forward to reunions to come. Reunions with the Petersons and with being a youth leader (which shall happen through Youth For Christ) and backstage crew and Josh!

Time apart from people and things I love has reminded me to be more appreciative of what I have when I have it. Something that I have not always done in the past, but I am striving to cease that and fix things. Yay God! Pkachuuxxchshshsh and snaps!

Realizations of silliness

I like and dislike the moments when I realize I had been being silly. And by silly I mean I had had frivolous fears or maybe not so frivolous ones that were serious yet unrealistic.

I like the sense of relief when the fear is past. And I like laughing at myself. And I like the sense of accomplishment. And I like that I can enjoy things even more than I usually would if I hadn't just tread of the foot of fear.

I don't like thinking of the possibility of things going wrong as a result of fears. Or thinking about how I could get in a state of being to wrapped up in silly fear to experience life. Or thinking about how my silly fears could harm other people.

I don't think I'll ever stop having silly fears permanently but I think I would do well by addressing the silly fear immediately instead of letting it fester like a banana in the hot hot desert sun.

Anti Fear List Thursday!

• Thinking about good things to come
• I'm going to be in a youth leader setting again soon
• Echo Thrift
• Biking
• I just noticed it is drizzling 
• Hawaiian shirts
• Tambourines
• Reuniting 
• Animal Kingdom
• African bands
• Pleasing friends with Jammie Dodgers
• Pelicans
• Socks (this has probably been on a list before)
• The Chronicles of Narnia, especially The Magician's Nephew
• Oddie cuddling me
• Brief car rides with Bergy and Mumford and Sons and Ricky
• The way I responded to Annie's question of how I was today
• Feeling like today was fulfilling